July 30, 2012

another new chapter begins...

Last Friday my primary care doctor told me I needed to apply for long term Social Security.
The hospital program I applied for accepted me and I have another appointment this week to hopefully start spinal injections.
I thought the injections would "fix" everything however that is not the case. The injections will get me out of the daily pain and allow me to be more comfortable, however they will not "fix" me.

Somehow knowing all this calmed me inside. I can deal with anything as long as I know what my reality is.

And here it is:
  1. Unless I can find a job that I can do with my disabilities, I can't work.
  2. I do not know when I will have any money.
  3. I thank God every day for my friend who has opened up her house and couch for me, along with lots of hugs and support.
  4. The fuel pump in my car went out and I am praying my church's Auto Ministry can fix it. Luckily I was able to buy the parts with my last check. I will find out tomorrow if they can do the labor.
  5. I don't know my purpose or what tomorrow is going to bring.
Instead of giving up, I am looking at this as just a new chapter in my book of life.

So here's my plan:
My new job is to blog every day and paint every day.
I've cleaned up my email inbox and have only 38 emails to go.
I made all the bill arrangements I can and have asked for help.
I'm going to create whatever I feel like creating and set up at every event I can.
I'm going to network and learn as much as I can from everyone, hopefully including YOU!

God's on my side and I know I have to go through this to get where I need to be.
I'm scared, really scared. Accepting this truth and not knowing what this process is going to be like is a dark unknown so I have to stay in the present and surround myself with positive, artistic, honest people.

This is what I am going to do tomorrow.
Turn this broken cardboard shoebox into a box to hold my acrylics:


And finish this painting on canvas:


My boys do not like my Dragonfly Girls and feel I should go back to abstract painting if I want to make any money.
I already have so many Girls done that I am going to create mats and put them in cellophane bags to sell.
Maybe put a few on canvases also.
I thought about making a few custom coloring books of flowers, dragonflies and fairies? What do you think?

I really do not know where to go from here except forward.
If you have any advice on selling at events, on line or getting recognized please share if you don't mind.

Hope you had a Marvelous Monday!
Love, hugs and blessings to all.

July 28, 2012

i'm officially an artist, yikes...

Last Saturday was our local downtown Art & Wine Art Walk. The downtown association sponsors this event every 3rd Saturday throughout the summer. Most of the stores stay open late with wine tasting and plenty of local artists displaying everything from handmade jewelry, pottery, handmade porcelain, sculptures and paintings of every medium imaginable.

I have been attending the Art Walk every summer with dreams of someday being an "artist".

Well my two paintings were still part of the ArtSpace exhibit last Saturday. As being part of the exhibit it gave each artist a chance to spend the evening greeting and talking to people at the exhibit's Reception.

I was so nervous not knowing what to expect or what was expected of me. Once I got there it became a magical night. I was introduced as one of their newest "Artists".
Really, ME? An artist amongst all the artists I have admired for so long.
I felt like I was a princess for a night.

The exhibit did well and one of my paintings was the first to be SOLD!
A wonderful lady bought my painting "Flowers in the Forest".


Its taken me a week to even post this and there are so many new changes taking place in my life, but that's for the next post.

Hope everyone has a Wonderful Weekend!

July 20, 2012

matted and framed dragonfly girls...

I matted and framed several of my dragonfly girls.
The next exhibit at the Art Council's theme is BIG and I don't think I will be entering that one since I have nothing BIG...yet.
The following exhibit will be "Healing".
I want to enter some of my dragonfly girls since drawing, coloring and painting these pictures have been helping me through my healing.

Here are a couple I matted and framed to see what they look like. I am still trying to be able to take pictures of my art once there is glass on top....Ahhhh!!!! Still learning.



The last one I named Laura in Orange. After I drew and colored her she looked just like my childhood best friend Laura Joy who passed away at 22 from childhood Leukemia.
Cancer has taken so many people from my life and I wanted to honor her.

I would really appreciate your feedback and critique!
I have over 20 dragonfly girls now and continue to create them daily. I have several that I am now painting on canvases.

Tomorrow is the Art Council Reception where I have to be present as an "Artist".
I wonder if I really am an Artist or just someone who doodles for myself.
I think it has to do with my low self-esteem and health situation.
Again, I would appreciate any help with that too!
Hopefully I won't hyper-ventilate and pass out, haha!

Have a Fantastic Friday and a Wonderful Weekend!
Remember to tell your loved ones how much you love them.
Each day God gives us is so precious.
Big hugs to all of you!

July 16, 2012

two paintings framed and on exhibit...


I have learned that it is extrememly hard to take a photo that is on exhibit.
With lights and reflections off the glass this is the best we could get.

No photos are allowed of the other art without the artist's permission, of course, so I will be taking lots of photos with the other artists on the exhibit's reception night!

I am SO excited to have two of my paintings included with all the wonderful local artists in our area.

Hope you are having a wonderful beginning to a brand new week!

July 02, 2012

i'm on exhibit...

Two of my paintings were approved, have been hung and (deep breath) for sale at this month's exhibit at the El Dorado Art Council's ArtSpace!
My son Philip and I went downtown to see them and take some pictures to share!

Philip is an awesome photographer. I have been telling him to enter his photos for years,
so who better to take with me, right? Plus he and his brother Jacob are my biggest fans!
I tried taking a couple of pictures myself. With the lights and fans reflecting in the glass I handed the camera over to Philip.

Oddly none of the pictures came out. The ArtSpace is closed today so we will go back later this week and try again. I believe in "all things happen for a reason"
so there must be a reason I need to go back.

Here are the ones that were chosen. I would have entered more however most everything I have done is in storage. These just happened to be in my portfolio in the back of my car along with the pencil and ink drawings I have been doing.




I was amazed at the transformation of these two paintings once they were matted and framed!
And then to see them in this month's exhibit! WOW!

I am still in shock. Now I want to paint again! I'm still staying at my girlfriend's house on her couch. I am so grateful to her for a roof over my head, internet access (smiles) and the great love and comfort she has given me through this difficult time. Even though it's really getting hot outside I could take my stand up easel out there and paint a little! I really want to get back to being me again.

My chiroprator has been treating me which has been keeping me walking. She is terrific and very honest as she told me that there was just too much damage for her to fix, I needed a specialist and possibly a surgeon.

So I prayed! Something had to give. I know God never gives us more than we can handle however I have wondered about this lately.

Then more good news came! I was accepted into a major hospial's program for uninsured patients. A spine surgeon reviewed my case and set me up as a patient with their orthopedic doctors!
What a blessing! God always shows up, and prayers are always answered.

Hope your Monday is full of Beautiful Blessings!
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