Ever had one of those days were there seems to be a "theme"?
Today was one of those days.
This morning I was going through my e-mails and there was a new post from Stephanie Gagos' blog Finding Your Voice Of Truth.
I found Stephanie through another blog called Beauty of Sorrow led by Sung-Hee (Regina) Hong.
Stephanie is also a member of Willowing & Friends, a Life Coach, a writer, a creative art journaler and on her own healing journey, just like most of us!
Both sites are dedicated to healing from trauma or dysfunction and both contain incredible stories of healing along with wonderful art.
Stephanie's post title was "The Scream Inside" and I had to read on.
Stephanie wrote about all of us having a scream inside that we need to get out.
It was interesting to me as I do not think I have ever "screamed" in my life.
I tried it. It didn't work.
Right after that I got into a conversation with my best friend.
I had not told her about the post I had just read.
We started talking about communication and how hard it is to express ourselves and how easily we can get intimidated when trying, especially with doctors, bosses or other people of authority.
I was still in my pajamas after our phone call.
Instead of getting dressed I decided to watch my next Invitation for Total Alignment.
Invitation 4 was about Total Self Expression!
I thought "you gotta be kidding me, really?".
3rd time in one day with this theme...I think I need to learn something here.
I found myself crying as Connie explained that we all have something important to share
through our stories, our Self Expression.
To paint with Total Self Expression is to SING!
(that's all I am saying...you really might want to check out Total Alignment)
Well, my five-year old self wanted to scribble flowers with the my previously melted water soluble
oil pastel crayons...then add acrylic paint...more crayons...more water...
It started looking REALLY UGLY!
I began an argument with the process.
I thought to myself:
Can you really mix oil pastels and acrylics without drying in between?
There is NO WAY I can post this painting, even though it's not about the art?
Really, change the colors up again? And add watercolor paint too? Can I do this?
Then I thought about the Intention of the process.
It's not about the art!
It's about allowing my inner Self-Expression to flow out.
I changed the Pandora station to something I could really SING to.
And that's what I did.
There I was, still in my pajamas in the middle of the afternoon, painting and singing to some of my favorite classic rock. Remembering fun times, remembering love and heartache, dreaming, feeling life and the flow!
I was so into the process that I didn't even realize I had been standing the whole time with my back to the large open window that faces the busy street...in my Spongebob Squarepants jammy bottoms!
Moving and singing and painting away!
Hopefully that sight put a little laughter into someone's day.
It sure made me laugh when I realized it.
So I just let it go.
I allowed the creativity inside to flow out.
I allowed myself True Total Self Expression.
I turned the music up and the inner critic off!
And when I was finished, this is what I saw:
Once again I am totally amazed at the process and what comes out when I just let go and allow the Creative Force inside me to flow!
My SHOUT-OUT today goes out to YOU & YOUR Self-Expression!
The beautiful Self-Expression within you!
May it shine and light the path for others.
Have a Sensational Sunday!